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unfriendliest) wrote2020-01-05 09:03 pm
unfriendliest) wrote2020-01-05 09:03 pm
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"I have no intention of
getting friendly with you."
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"I have no intention of
getting friendly with you."
ookurikara
RULER'S CLASS
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the xie lian of the dream gives him a confused look, for a moment, and then turns his gaze away, towards the sheet covered bodies across the room. ] ...Wouldn't this be something more of a nightmare?
[ haha. yeah, actually. ] It would certainly be easier if it was. [ he sighs. ] Am I dead too?
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I wouldn't be here if you were dead.
[ he might have preferred that, unfortunately. he has better things to do than babysit xie lian in his nonsensical dreams. ]
So wake up already.
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xie lian's quiet, arms folded across his knees. ] ...I don't suppose you would be, no. [ kara wouldn't come protect him.... isn't that what he wanted? to stop being babied, to be able to do things on his own? ]
Can I ask you something? [ a beat. the dream xie lian won't wait for a reply or consent.... coincidentally, neither would the regular one, but that's neither here nor there. ]
Is it worse to help and cause someone to suffer unintentionally, or to step away, knowing perhaps you could have done something, and watch them suffer for afar?
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he does, however, answer immediately, and honestly. ]
Not even trying to help someone when you have the power to do so will always be worse.
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...I think so too. [ that's for sure. it rings in his chest, a familiar sense of warmth, and he looks away again, back to the newspapers spread out in front of him. ] I want to help as many people as I can. I...
[ ...mn. ] ...It should have been me. I wish it was.
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[ any kara would say the same, though perhaps this xie lian's kara would find a slightly gentler way of saying so. ]
If you're alive, then make yourself useful. There's no use in wasting time wishing things went differently when you can focus on something you can actually change.
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xie lian huffs, a wry, sort of laugh, mouth curling up a bit. ] ...I know that. I wanted -- I wanted to be able to make the mistakes on my own, instead of having them made for me. Everyone was trying so hard to protect me, and no one bothered to ask me if I wanted to be protected at all. I want to -- I'm going to make as much of this right as I can.
[ there's a sense of determination, there, as xie lian stands up, rather abruptly, looking up at this dragon who he only sees as his right hand. standing like this, the daozhang presents that same spark of fierce leadership that was in that portrait; there's something bright in his eyes, an untamed fire that's been lit, again. ] Kara. [ he says, tipping his head up -
and then, he bows. the gesture is exceedingly polite, formal, his hands clasped at his sides. ] I'm sorry for being so troublesome to you, all these years. I know guarding me has never been easy, and I don't think this will make it any easier, either. Nonetheless, it's been an honor, to have you as my right hand.
[ xie lian straightens, again, and offers him a small smile. ] If you would want to leave, I would understand. But if you'll stay, let's... let's make things right, for our family. For this whole town.
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after a moment of hesitation, he decides on: ]
I'm not the Ookurikara you should be saying this to. I don't know who or where he is, but I'm not your right hand, and I never will be.
[ and he'll leave it at that, to turn to try the door again. FREE HIM. ]